Loss

How do we deal with loss? All of us deal with it differently and of course there are similarities, but it’s a very personal thing.

Even though I know better, I still want to be angry at God. And all the stuff I talk about when I say we are God and that the Love inside of us is God, it goes right out the window. When I’m in the middle of feeling the loss, all my spiritual beliefs do not seem to mean anything. And maybe that’s the point. Maybe I’m suppose to just feel the loss and all the feelings of anger and grief and sadness that go with it.

And I’m feeling all these feelings about a little goat that I really loved that I just found dead at the animal rescue. I was there to give all the little old goats treats and she was just dead. I hate it when animals that I was close to die. It’s really the worst thing ever and for me, even worse that loosing a human. They are here for such an even shorter period of time than we are. 

I find myself thinking that I just want to go with them and be done with this existence where everything and everyone leaves, eventually. Yes, yes, there are no endings and it’s just a transition. Just let me have my moment!

I’ll miss you Sweetie!